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2005-03-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

- Want Fight Me Fight These Tears -

sian, my upper dominal very pain! ahh!! lol
Feel like having 2 dogs with i grow up, one golden retriver and one jack rusell! lols... i go play game first.

2005-01-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

- Boring Days! -

sigh, on 19/01/2005, went to Changi Hospital to try my luck getting MC, well, everything went right till the doctor say i got to be warded! sigh... and yup, i was hospitalised till 23/01/2005, omg, 5 freaking boring days!!!!!!!!!!! ARG!!!!! can someone control my appetite? i wanna go a strict strict diet! but, my stomach still hurts! arg!!!!!

Million of pins and needles can't describe the pain i went thru that night, not during my stay in hospital that is.... that night, haiz... very sad... don't know why suddenly think of so much... lols, kinda out of topic...

While i'm typing, my appendic area pain... arg!! think gonna end here... lazy to type le.. haha, actually is don't know what to say... Today just watch Elektra with Quest and Kok Chi, not a bad show... i still prefer Abby Miller more than Elektra, lols... she's cute and LETHAL, looks can kill...

2005-01-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

- Forgotten Memories -

my memory getting worse to hopeless le, can't remember things much! but i managed to recap a dream that i dreamt few months back... it's all about BoA! =)

She came sg, and i'm like one of her not many close friends in sg.. then that very night after i bring her go out eat, she told me she gonna fly back to Jap soon. I don't know why but she tug onto me and cried.. i didn't know what to do as i like her alot... i tried to cheer her up, then i brought her to a very high watch tower, just the two of us... i told her my confession and every thing, i hug her and i woke up... errr, didn't said about the kiss on da cheek part =X, cause i know people will say i bhb lols...

2005-01-06T07:15:00.000+08:00

- Time Passed -

Arg... been a while since i last posted.. =) hope you guys are still doing fine bahz? lol... who are those "guys", no idea.. lols...

lyka tired... kana attached to Dieppe"guards" Barracks for Tsunami Operation. The working hour are as follow, 12 hours, 24 hours & off. In Order =( sigh..

Later going parklane with Jin Yi to check the new Lanshop setup by Qi He aka PwA Fireboy, lol, i say till like i know her, wahhahahahahahahah ^_^. i'm mad. Just tuned in to perfect10, then heard this song by Red Hot Chilli Pepper, can't remember the title.. quite nice... go home gonna find the song.. wahha... shiok, another 1 hr then can knock off liao.. wee~ gtg! Take Care bub

2004-12-26T17:51:00.000+08:00

- parcels of love -

i'm starting to think that i'm cursed in my previous life or when i'm young or something..why? cause that it seems to me that i can't love, cherish or treasure those i really love.. those that i don't, they kept coming to me.. haiz, i don't know... i'm not blinded by love or something... frankly speaking, i can really let go of her pass and live with the future..sighs..

sometimes, i cried. i shed tears.. for those that i like or i don't.. i don't know why, i just feel sad for them, their story, their chapter or so what ever.

Actually, i find that if i truly like someone, i don't need to have reason of why i like her so.. am i right? or am i wrong? i don't have the looks, i don't have the moeny, i have nothing.. all i have is a heart, as pure as crystal...
don't know why i have this type of feeling.. as long as i can like the person i want, i would be very very very happy, she doesn't have to like me.. ha. "being loved is better than loving" different for me, haiz.. i go train my dota.. miss you -K-?

2004-12-17T19:56:00.000+08:00

- Understanding Or Loving -

Dear friends, let me remind you all something.... understanding plays a very important role in relationship, don't just think love here love there can liao, but relationship needs understand more than love! don't believe? cap a picture of it, let say you don't know her and she don't know you how you two gonna have sparks tio bo, hi ya, don't know what i am saying lahz, any how type.. lol

Let mi show you all something, http://www.cassandrappg.blogspot.com , a Singaporean race queen and she's from aLt) !!! wah! wc3 somemore... pei fu, she sure thrash me like a FF lol.... hmmm, so sian, now having duty.. haiz.. miss the world outside of camp lol.. free as bird.. =P gotta go.

2004-12-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

- i m so tired -

Saturday overnight training, and i'm awake till now... think it's like 37 hrs haven't sleep liao. i'm BEAT!!! arg, haven't bath somemore, got to ride Hao Han's bicycle to camp later... sob sob, i wanna sleep..

2004-12-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

- weird dream -

Alright!!! yesterday i was on COS duty, then today morning hand over duty, iwent up bunk around 8+, went to Jun Yi's bunk play dreamcast till 10+ then i went back to my bunk to sleep... oh my guniess, weirdest dream ever i had!!!

I dreamt that my friend intro me this "prositute" then, "erham, ya we made it" haha, then there was this camera man hiding which i spotted after a while, then i grab her and ran away, had no idea why would i grab her too.. then we ran to a hotel, we hid under the counter desk, but.. bah, they caught me, then i ran off with her again..

Then i woke up to adjust my pillow, i drifted off to dream again, same scenery, we were running till her house or mine i forgot, then we settle down there, we fell in love at the first time we met for "eham, you know..". Then i married to her, we had this garage don't know for what use, then one night.. My WHOLE TEAM came down and visit me.. including Warrior, he told mi he took leave to visit me, i was like, what the fuck, the dream is so allah.. haha... then so on and so far, we were living together happily!..

Hmmm, the girl wasn't talk nor short, average height, red neck lengthed hair... tan skin, lol... aww man, then i realise.. Understanding is harder than to love. Even she was in that kinda business, but.. If you truthfully like someone, you won't care so much for her background, of course you'll try in your best to change her, which i did in my dream!! lol... hmm, i'm gonna taste my home made fish burger!!!

2004-12-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

- Lyka Zombie -

wah, very tired, yesterday just ton, today ton again... WEEEE, lyka super star!! lol.. come to think of it, it has been a while since i last updated... Arg, Taufik won the Singapore Idol, but, i really do like Sylvester sing "I Dream" rather than Taufik thou, PEACE OUT!!! lol...

Hmmm, tomorrow can go collect my handphone le...

-signing out...

2004-11-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

- Sleepssssssssssssss -

Just came back from CRC for training, so tired siahz, not enough sleep to cover the loss of sleep for the pass few days!! lol... headache arg!! bth, everytime i take bus i sure headache.. =( hmm, after signing out i'll go pop panadol...

Sian, tomorrow got COS duty... =( waste my weekend siahz NS, seriously "[S]uck [A]nd [F]uckedup" sian!!!! haiz, i really wish to have a gf, don't know why.. so i can have some one there to be with me? Don't think i have the mindset for having gf now, not really ready for one bahz i think... haiz bth, think i go play game till morning then go back camp lol..

-signing out-

2004-11-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

- It's sinful to not to sin -

Wa laoz.. Tuesday & Wednesday two whole day at live range, uniform also become smelly.. then today last parade ended around 7.10 !!!! OMG...

Mom cooked hokkien noodle and i'm eating now, tot is the one i always eat, now then i realise that's hokkien prawn mee lol...

Hmmm, Jenny asked for my address say wanna send me something, wondering what is it, sekali she send herself, then i happy man lol!!!! she told me that few days ago, our old house kana caught fire.. 17th floor kana, then she and her brother was in the lift, heng never kana burn! lol... alrighty, i'm gonna eat then play...

2004-11-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

- Sleepy -

Wow, first time slept to this time! =( but still feel quite tired, don't know why.. now cooking noodle, think i might go Loyang Point ta bao roti prata then shun bian check out the hand phone shop dealer if they have pantech phone...

Last thursday CSM say book in on Monday, hope is on Monday lohz, so i can sleep more later lol... hmm, think my noodle half done liao.. byes!

2004-11-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

- T h e F o r g o t t e n -

Meet up Jasper around 1+ to eat at Tampinese KFC, shun bian see which one is Oreo, to my surprise, she serve me!!! hmmm, don't think she knows it's me bahz hahaha, after eating, i took train go meet Cynthia...

Samsung customer service say my phone need about 2weeks to service and might not be able to use the warrantly, =(... fated to buy new phone bahz hahaha...

Went to the movie, watched The Forgotten with Cynthia... abit weird show, about this wife, Telly, was one of the experiment which was also the unexpected failure one who's memory wasn't erase... Boom effect caught most of the viewer off guard, hahah...

Still can't make up my mind which phone i wanna buy, p400? v200? Pantech G100? hmmmmmmmmm, 12#$!^!%!^#!$#@^@ zzzzzzzz....

Sian, i go play NFSU2 le~

2004-11-19T03:21:00.000+08:00

Wah, yesterday went SAFTI for IMT, i was like sleeping the whole day lohz, lika pig lol... The best thing was, i even dreamt of a tactic for de_inferno lols... power!

Hmmm, forgot what i wanted to write when i had alot of things to write.. lol, oh ya! Just now went Geylang meet Awan they all... then went to had TaoHui! lol, Jasper blanja mi one...

Oh!! i recall le, i went to Sim Lim after i book out to buy my new headphone, Senhensier HD 457, silver color de.. nice siahz! lol... but i now porkai liao, bank left $8.24... =( poor boy

Later maybe going down UOL building there de KFC makan with Rex they all shun bian see how Oreo looks like, then go meet Cynthia, so long never see her le, kinda miss her hahaha.... Oh ya, i remember after i book out i tot can catch a glance of Oreo, although don't know which one is her, i went KFC to grab a drink, this girl, damn cute, she told me "enjoy your meal" then i was like O_O, just a drink, then i walk off haha.... kinda tired lehz...

think i go sleep, tomorrow take back my NFSU2 from Jin Yi... nightys!

2004-11-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

Slept till 12+ today, when i woke up i remember that i missed my physio appointment that was on last Friday =( So tired and lazy to go service my phone, so tired siahz... Next Saturday Blaz[3] having a trial, and my team is gonna play with them, taking it as a training.... sian.. hope can perform well! weeeee

Yesterday i made a new friend, she calls herself Oreo, i at first tot is Audrey haha.. Oreo oreo oreo~~~ yummy, hungry.... sian, my phone spoil, very ke lian, whole day cannot use my phone, ppl message me i lan lan suck thumb cannot read lol..... Feel like using next month pay go buy new phone, hmmm.. pantech g100 or p400 nehz? ponder~~~ alrighty,i go play match le.. ciaos

2004-11-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

- Instruction -

Guys, if you all wanna take a look at all my album, just click on the link, it'll prompt you there.. once in www.imagestation. you'll see Me, Myself & I by guni87 Guni [ENTER]

Click on guni87 and you'll be prompt to another page where you can choose to browse all my album, have fun!! if you wanna have your pic loaded in my pic webby, just pm mi in irc [Guni-`]

2004-11-14T18:48:00.001+08:00

- 100% Loaded -

Yes !! Finally after long time of loading... pictures of us going marina bay is up in my picture link... go there and take a look, i forgot to save the caption, think will do it again when i free.. now i'm gonna Need for Speed Underground2 liao.. ciaos

2004-11-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

- weee? -

Introducing, Mare Nostrum! World second fastest computer, it do 40 trillions, yes 40 trillians job per sec! cool right hahahaa....

Just came back from central,went to had my supper... i packeted 2 pancake pizza back, nice siah!!!

Today's training was quite a good start bahz? haha... just now afternoon around 4-5pm, was walking with Rex & Jasper at Tampinese Mall, while waiting for Shawn to service his handphone at Starhubby, i saw Angela & Ginger, and some more Hai Sing peeps, haha... Angela and Ginger chat with me like long time never seen me liao.. hehe, not bad lahz, i quite long time never see them also, miss them =P

Think i this coming Monday i go Sim Lim Square buy my Senhensier HD 457 haha... wah, kinda tired lehz.... btw, Friday's outing to Marina Square took some pictures, gonna load them up my picture website after i finish receiving them from Rex.. =P so.... gonna eat my "pizza" now... ciaos!

2004-11-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

- Luck isn't on my side -

Went out Marina Bay makan session with Rex, Shawn & his gf, Jasper, Eryc and me, shun bian celebrate Eryc's 18 birthday.. we went Sim Lim Square accompany Shawn to buy his headphone and mouse pad first then he meet up with his gf then we stop at BreadTalk to buy cake...

Kns, i forgot to ask them for a knife to cut up the cake lol.. we end up eating with chopsticks! we head down to the arcade to play game~ i spent like $10 on games? Worse part is, my phone spoil!!! shit man, think tomorrow or sunday gonna go down service my phone =(

2004-11-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

- Freakingzoid -

today book out around 5.40... actually, suppose to meet up Cynthia, but she gotta meet her bf so not really enough time so we cancel off the meeting and change it to next Friday.. haha, so long never see her le, wonder how she is now..

hmmm, imma go play match first... freaking tired... these few days my temper very hot... don't know why.. haiz, sian..

Anyway, today brought a black polo T and a cap! haha... hmmm ,think later going town area see where got sell NFSU2 buy one and play.. the game lika nice you know!? if i were to rate it, i'll give, 8 out of 10 milk bottles... recently there's a new movie something called, bride and prejudige de, very nice lehz! feel like watching, but it's abit indo stance de.. haha... gonna sleep soon... nighty night people!

2004-11-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

- Now And Forever -

Just finished playing match, so tired... haiz.. think this Friday or Saturday will mobilise us again =( sians.. but heng, tomorrow after last parade go home, then go back camp only on Thursday haha, then Friday working hour 9-12.30 only, off again till Monday night then go back camp, hahahha... shiok des neh? Sunday feel like going Sentosa suntan leh.. =(

Just now Jian Fa ask me if she get over with him and wanna be with me, will i want... i didn't really tell him what i wanted to say thou, actually, if this really were to happen, i wouldn't want lohz, cause it's like.... it's not mine after all. Even if that's not the case, why would she wants to be with him in the first place and not me right? =P

heeeee, sianz... tonight never watch "The Champion", but the previous episode very saddening, my Wang Tong hurt her left shoulder, kinda dislocate lehz, i think i too enthu into this show le, wahhahahahahaha.... Just now afternoon i went gym, =X so long never go gym, after working out a while, felt so tired, haha... sigh, let you all know something, i gain like 8 kg within a month! omg.. needa cut down my fats then go tone my muscle weeee, then sun tan, then PROOF!! yandao guni.. bleahs, i'm dreaming again... lols.. alrighty, imma gonna get bathe then back to camp dudes.. love ya guys!

2004-11-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

- Tired Day.. -

Ah, i slept till 4pm plus was waken by my handphone's ring tone... Wei Jie called me to ask for Frozen Throne cd key... damn tired... =( played match since i woke up till now...
eating my dinner now, haiz.. i'm getting fatter and fatter, cannot!! BU KE YI! haha.. heng today they never mobilise us back, else i'll be like a walking zombie, woohoo. In broad daylight somemore.. haha, sian siahz... but nvm, next week pay day, hmmm... don't know that preudetnial lady, Vanessa will call me to ask mi sign a not... if she call me, can meet her up, kinda cute and pretty... haha, but gotta waste $70.. =( hahah... hmmm~

2004-11-07T13:15:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

TEST TEST TEST

2004-11-07T11:41:00.001+08:00

- Same Old Brand New Me -

Wooo... Just finish updating my new template, nice mah? Angels are always so sweet and magical, haha... Kinda tired now, just came back from overnight training at CRC, what's worst is later got mobilisation, piang... think i'll keep it short.. gonna take a nappy!

2004-10-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

- Do Dream Tell Lies -

Damn, I'm getting fat! haiz... bth.. needa cut down on my weight liao but my camp's food so nice, irresistable siahz! hehe.. hmmm, the new sitcom "Ren Wo Hao Yu " very nice! about swimming, after seeing the show, so many babes and hunk, feel like go body building lol... Wang Tong cool siahz!! i like her alot!~ so tired.. later gotta book in, then wednesday got appointment with my Specialist! sianz..... yawns.. so long nv write my blog le.. hahha think i'll stop here

Track Spinning - Boy'z - Si Xin Bu Gai

2004-10-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

- Keitaro <3 Narusegawa -

^^ i got a gf liao.. that's Narusegawa.. http://www.narusegawa.net an anime girl.. haha.. same age as me.. haiz.. going out to marina with my team makan.. think i go whitesand make one ring for myself first, don't know what to craft on my ring, "Guni" "Kelvin" "MilkmaN" hmmm.... think will roughly cost about $20 bahz... haiz, wait for next pay i go buy myself a cig box. else my cig always get crash haha... Last thursday, i dreamt of her again, well although never see her in dream... i dreamt that i was listening to radio then this dj was saying a true story of a couple, which after i realise is her and her hubby ^^ haha... hiya sian.. father buy pepsi, so gassy, tot he would buy greentea for me =( alrighty, i'm going out le..

2004-10-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

- Tired! -

Today while out camp for store run, i suddenly recap of me and her eating at amk hawker center, that night was kinda.. ermz, how should i say... "Qiao" don't know how to spell... sitting infront of us was a married couple.. they ordered the same food as us! and is like.. don't know how to say, i only remember that night, i told myself, if we were to be like that, i would be the most happiness guy on earth.. sian.. but now, i kinda doubt myself if i can make anyone happy, or give anyone happiness, i know money is not everything but, there will come a time you need money... haiz.. igo eat le, later got to book in.. miss her alot.

2004-10-01T16:26:00.000+08:00

- If Nothing Last Forever, Will You Be My Nothing -

There was once a story about a boy who had nothing in his life... One day he was strolling down the street, he passed by a shop selling lots of daily product. He notice a pretty girl sitting by the cashier, as he was standing quite far from the cashier so he decided to go in and take a look at the girl. "Ding Dong!" The bell sounded as the glass door slides open, he walk from one end to another, pretending to take a look at the price of the item, but every second, his eyes was glued to her. "Quite cute" he said to himself. Suddenly the girl notice someone looking at her so she return glare, he got shock out of his blood. Pretending to look at the item, he took the chocolate bar and went to the cashier to pay for the item. "That would be $1.20 please", said the girl. He took notes out from his pocket and pay for it and quickly left the shop.

On his way home, he took the chocolate bar in his hand can't bare to eat it. In his mind, he was thinking of her, although he was those kinda of boys who don't dare to get close to girl to know them, a shy one boy. That day, he was like in love, with a stranger. Almost everyday he grab the opportunity to go to the shop to buy something just to take a glance at the pretty girl. One night, he dreamt of her. When he woke up, he was so shock that he actually dreamt of that girl. That very day, he went down to the shop again. He look around the shop, can't seems to find that girl anywhere, sitting by the cashier is one middle age guy. "Hmmm, forget it." He went back home, moody.

After having dinner at home, he went back to his room and thought to himself, "am i fond of her?" He finally buck up his courage and went down to the shop that night. He grab the same chocolate bar and proceed to the counter to pay his stuff. "Hi, may i have the chance to get to know you?" He said, "errrrr, sure, hi!" the girl replied. He was blushing, she noticed. From that day onwards, he kept going to that shop and talk to her, fetch her home. And even went out for dinner and movies. He never told her that he liked her, and never has he planned to tell till the right time, and he thought that she would know. Till one day, he message her. "Hey, wanna go for breakfast?" "Sorry, i can't. My boyfriend meeting me.". Upon reading this message, he broke down and cried in his room. "You got a boyfriend...?" "Ya..".

For the pass 1 week, he never message her, he kept himself locked in his room, no wanting to see anybody, hear anybody, except her. For that one week, he almost dreamt of her everynight, and end up crying in the morning. Finally, he message her and told her, "I like you, i was afraid to tell you so because i was afraid that you might avoid me, and i won't want to lose a friend like you. I know we can't be together, but. I still like you, deep blessing from me to your relationship, bye, take care."

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2004-09-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

- Every Second Is Precious To Me -

30min to some of you might be just gone in a flash, but isn't for me... i'd treasure every second..
Haiz.. yesterday was a terrible headache for me.. whole day tao tia lol.... bth, late night i went to Sommerset and meet her then send her back.. cool.. never send peple back home till so late b4.. =) sianz... think today must save money, eat maggie mee whole day ^^ cool hor? haha i go play cs

2004-09-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

- Ai Yi Ge Ren Hao Nan -

Anyone of you wonder why is it so hard to love someone? It's because the other party didn't/hasn't accepted your love, that's why you find it that hard... it's like we are the train, they are the track, if they don't connect, we will just head to nowhere... =)

Haiz, my sgt also ask mi to tell her how i felt for her.. but how to want mi to open my mouth siahz, i'm shy lehz... tot of giving up lots of time, but don't know why i just kept caring for her so much... why can't she understand this kind of caring can't be found in a bro/sis relation? Haiz... well, at least i got something to be happy bout...

I brought new jean, top and shoe! woo... pick high cut converse shoe, nice hor? LOL... haiz, i go play mu..

Maroon5 - Must Get Out

2004-09-12T18:28:00.001+08:00

- A Dream That Seems So Real -

I dreamt of her yesterday, a dream that is sooo real to me.. It's something like this.
I own a car, dog & a small kitten.. One day i was washing up my pets then suddenly my "sixth" sense telling mi to go her place on that moment... I drove there and to my surprise.. she was crying when she open the door for me.. then i quickily step in her house and close her door and ask her what happened, but she just kept crying and crying... then suddenly there's knocking on the door, an old lady.. who calls herself some prison captain or what who goes around catching those who needs to go prison... not knowing what happened, i ask her again what happened, she just ran to my back and hide herself from her.. kns then don't know how the lady break into the house and wanting to grab her... her away from me... Then the lady explain to me what she had did.. which i forgot le lahz, haha... knowing that she will leave me, i hug her close to me.. like i never did to anyone before... Couldn't remember what happened next but i know i was all the way beside her till outside the so called "prison"... still hugging her... that was when i cried... when i open my eyes i saw "ah boy". Then he tell mi, wah, u also not bad, everyone knows what happened all came down, knowing that there's people behind mi but i didn't care... all i care was that someone important to me is gonna leave me... our tears drop on the ground.. i kissed her cheek and told her... "Anything happen inside, please let mi be the first to know... i'll come and visit you everyday.." After promising her, she was brought into the "prison" i turned back and saw my friends, i can't remember all but some "Dave and kweesin"... next moment i was back at her appartment, capturing the memories that we had together.. then out of sudden, the old lady appeared next to me asking me.. "Do you think it is worth it for someone like her for your love?" i was still weeping.. answering back in a very soft tone, "yes, i love her alot..." then i woke up le.. still got continue but i can't remember le..

Then i went to toilet and brush my teeth, i notice my eyes are abit wet then i look into the mirror and shocked myself, my eyes were red... I really cried in the dream? NExt thing i knew is that my back very pain, think i sprain it.. =X haiz... i really do like her but, everytime i want to get away from her... there's this voice telling mi.. do you really want to leave her? haiyo... don't know lahz.. i very pek cek now... couldn't get mc, now so tired... gonna book in also le.. haven't bath, after i update this i go bath then off i go back to lj camp again... *back hurts*..

2004-09-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

2004-09-08T15:48:00.000+08:00

- Jie Kou -

Haiz... Just came back from Polyclinic, fucking doctor, giving mi a 1 day mc, for what use... pua che by.. Tot can go her house, i watch tv while she sleep... even see her sleep also can, seeing someone sleeping is the cutest thing i can ever think of, but.. who knows... haiz, rain rain rain, stupid fucking rain.. I'm already very tired, she already has bf, then wish her happy lohz.. Was right in the first place, shouldn't get too close... but... Don't know what to say.. When will everyone stop treating mi as a kid, doesn't she knows? I don't treat her as my sis anymore, i'm treating her as someone i care alot, forget it.. i'm already very tired of it already... i'm ought to be alone for this life =P yes i know that, tomorrow stupid appointment, just fucking send mi to operate my fucking leg thats it... i don't need anything, i don't need anyone... i just want someone to love and to love me... that's so hard ar god?... This would be my last update of my blog, don't wish to write anymore... No more relationship thingy till after 2 years... After i ord. after i study... Tot of so much, so much.... After study go Shen Zheng with my cousin and her tot can fa zhan there... but, guess all my thinking and tots went down the drain, just like that... i'm just a kid in everyone's eye... is 2 years so much different of 2 different person?.. i really like her.. i raelly wish that won't be the past... that's it, this are my last word... wo shi zhen de hen xiang gen ni kong xiang yi shen... yi wei wo ai ni.. Good bye.

2004-09-05T17:29:00.000+08:00

- I'm tired for all this -

Should have known, i spoil it all by saying something stupid... haiz.. The person you love the most will eventually hurt you the deepest... why must it be like this? Can't she understand my feeling towards her till this point? Must i really say it out loud like i love you, when i know i won't have the courage to do so... have realise i've already made the wrong first step... I'm tired..

Booking in later.. feel so pain in my heart, =( ... must i really put down after what i've gone thru so much thinking in the first place before i started it?? Where can i find answer.. All i want and ask for is just a plain simple love.. i could do nothing more other then staring at her.. haiz... saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

2004-09-05T11:20:00.000+08:00

- It's hard for me to love, it's even harder for me to let go -

How come when it comes to love, i'm always failing at it.. Where as others happily smiling away walking down the street hand in hand... maybe what Cynthia said is right, why should i go for it when i know it's a trap for me to fall... since i already know what for should i keep going.. Sad but true...

Can anyone answer me.. why do i dreamt of her consistantly when she's not even someone close to me.. When will i be awake.. these few days i have been coughing blood out.. haiz, think my throat too heaty le.. HAiz, i'm so happy that she came down to my place yesterday.. Was just thinking bout her before i went to sleep and i even dreamt of her going out with her to bugis then back to my place... and she came here by herself.. haiz.. should i be happy or sad... fuckening mixed feeling is so hard to tell... haiz, think i go century play arcade a while then come back home.. sian... i suddenly feel like seeing her before i go back camp.. Can't anyone tell it from my action and my care? Must i really say out that i love her? I heard this from somewhere before, "Those who really love you won't say that they love you, they will show their extra care and concern for you, it's up to you to notice it and accept that fact that they do really love you" hmm... haiz, love... suck.

-Bath-

2004-09-04T10:25:00.000+08:00

- You're constantly in my heart, but.. am i in yours? -

Went to crc with Littleger yesterday.. then they went off without me =( i ownself ton till 7.30 then go take bus... I lit up cig and smoke, day dream and didn't notice my bus pass me lol... haiz.. just now in bus sleep i dreamt of what i said to her in sms but happened in "real life".. told her i wanna marry her, but she rejected.. then i woke up ankle almost cramp =( saddening haha... now abit tired, if later she can come out, i sure 100% not tired!.. hahaha.. don't know why see her she make my day! arg.. mom nagging mi go makan breakfast le...

2004-08-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

- I feel love, do you? -

Listening to Lu Rui En - Bai Se Yu Mao

Went out with Janice today, supposingly going out to watch movie de, but don't have... went window shopping and eat with her, she got such big appetite siahz, how cute of her... ^^ stay at bugis till 5 plus then she suggestted go orchard HMV.. Reach there around 15 min later.. haha, she went window shopping again, i also don't want her to anyhow spend her money lahz, although i cannot control even if she wants to...

Saw a couple of jeans i want to buy, hmmm next pay i'm gonna shop liao.. lol! it's cheap too..

We took bus to her place, half way thru the journey, she fell asleep on me... like a pig -.- haha, she's just tired that's why she sleep, no other meaning ! =P shouldn't anyhow think.. haha, but. It's like so long ever since i had this type of feeling, someone, some girl so close... how i wish moment like that could freeze... haiz.. well, it's just for a moment, but it's like mix feeling shot thru my body.. After Cynthia... when we took train just now, i recalled the last time i took train is with Cynthia, always standing beside me and such... I'm lost =(
Arg... my winamp random song picked Air Supply - All out of love, sad siah the song.. =( People can't understand how or what i'm feeling now, it's like.. it's impossible, i know but and yet i kept going on. Unwillingly to let go, knowing it's hard to let go but i held on.. I held on alone, all alone in her world.. Standing at one corner which no body knows of my presence.. haiz... i gonna play game le..

2004-08-26T09:09:00.000+08:00

- "Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart." "At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet." -

Woke up at 5+am today, couldn't sleep, yesterday my tempreture went up to 39.4, woot! Now my tempreture is 38.2, hmmm i find that the medicine they gave mi for my fever isn't working for my tempreture, only cause my headaches to go away for a while, then will come back later so is my fever, like a pro eh? haha...

Think i'm gonna call back office ask today COS help mi call Guards Mo to tell him that i'm still running on fever... =( gonna call now.....****phone****

Haiz, tonight must go back camp then see how, kns, sure very hard to sleep one lohz... =(

2004-08-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

- So near yet so far -

came to understand this meaning of "So near yet so far", each time i see the one i love is being loved and love, i feel so pain in my heart... a sharp ice stab into my heart... it's so painful to let go, and it's hard to take up the courage, haiz... i'm like a... failure..

Fell sick yesterday, fever<38.4c+>, went to Changi General Hospital.. fucking hell, waited there for like 1hr plus for my turn.. -.-'' pek ceh.. Luckily Janice really come and accompany me, which i tot she wouldn't... Well, had dreamt of her coming to my place, with a warm smile sitting by my bed as i'm lying sick on my bed, gently stroke my hairless head.. haha, think too much le, and hugging her, when i woke up, i found out that i'm actually hugging my pillow. hahha...

Read a wonderful story, http://www.geocities.com/babie6url209/ should go check it out..

Haiz, later today got to book in le, then for the next 2 weeks can't book out, weekend tio burn, haiz... feel like taking mc later, still not feeling well.. sobs sobs..

Wondering why yesterday i send her pic to my phone but never receive, but to my email can reveice lehz, hmmm.... When i browse thru her gallery, saw her with his bf bahz? So close, haha, jealous siahz, everytime i see couple, my heart very very pain, don't know why lol... "Why don't i get myself gf" People will ask this, but, with my this kinda face, how to have 1? lol... well, don't know what else to write le, i'm gonna play cs liao...

2004-08-01T10:26:00.000+08:00

- Love Comes At When You Don't Expects The Most -

This is my fourth book out, last book out, i totally forgot how to update my blog =P how forgetful of me... Many thing had happened while in ns, she has found herself someone to love, while me... still trying to forget the feelings i once had for her...

Thou i had someone in mind, but, it's like a "50/50" thing... There's alot of incommon things about us, for what i know for now, as i still don't know much of her stuff yet... and not only that, it's like, i must change myself, for those things i hate about girls, she had them... and yet, i got that feeling for her, i'm 100% sure i won't be her one, but i'm 70% sure i'm starting to have feelings for her, don't tell me.. If you see someone you like and look so alike walking on street with their bf you will feel jealousy, unless you got feelings for them right, it's like, so not me.... Just now in bus, i doze off, and i dreamt of her... exactly, how would you dream of someone you don't like constantly... sianz...

Had told her before that i'll "yang"support her living, that's quite true if i have that fiancial, but, of course i would want her to change herself abit, but that would be too self centered of me... i want her to be herself but i can't face the fact that she's like that... haiz... bth, want to faint liao... I don't really wanna care about her past, but would only want to carry her future for her, but it's like... she's too good for me, and i don't fit her... as in... alot of points ah! bth hahaha.... sianz....

\Celine Dion - To Love You More/

2004-06-13T19:11:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

today went wild wild wet wtih WwF. people, had great fun, the tsunami made mi feel dizzy... :( the water smell also hahahaa.... arg, don't know why i never kana sun tan!!! GRRR.. hmm feel more days b4 i go ns le...

Don't know why yesterday dreamt of her... don't know why also :(

2004-06-09T14:08:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

sianz, what a day, 2 day nv sleep.. -.-'' should be 1 1/2 day, now preparing to go training now, while talking on the phone with my new friend, yin ning, what a unique name, cause mostly i heard it yi ning, but yin? hmmm? hahha, kk don't laugh ppl name.. lols....

2004-06-08T07:32:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

*Time Check* It's 7.32am le, ya, i haven't sleep, waiting for my mom to get up then go police station make report :(, wonder why not i take a nap right? I would like to, who doesn't, but i scare i sleep liao she can't wake me up, i'm like a pig when i'm asleep :)... sighz, later prolly go eat liao then make report, my knee getting from bad to worse after eating and seeing the doctor :( especially my left knee, cmi so pain, sigh nothing to do, i go play gb..

2004-06-08T02:50:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

just came back from roc with a saddening mood, wallet dropped :( wah laoz, my ic, initial d all those :( heng, my neoprint taken with her not inside, haiz...
i go play gun bound le, hope my mom dno't kill me...

2004-06-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

slept at 6am plus today, wake up at 11am+ so tired, just came back from hospital visiting my dad with my mom, so tired but can't sleep, scare later my time change again, i mean like, people morning wake up i sleep, night sleep i wake up hahaa.... another 4 days to my mp3 player!! cool, can't wait to use my scv also :) sigh.. yesterday went zoo them van,jw,sumei & yu dan, jy hair and sumei top reminds mi of her... :( haha... had quite a fun time, took pic with animals! and i touch a dog! so cute!! and donkey! wooohooo hahaa.... then they put peacock and 1 more don't know what name bird species de run out, and we saw a squarrel on the way out, so cute, jw want get close to it, the squarrel run then jump into the dustbin then she say "wei sher mo ni zhe me ben, diao jin la xi tong" haha.

2004-06-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

http://www.zorpia.com/cgi/journal.cgi?journal_id=228492 <-- cute gang poem :)

arg, just reach homr from TPY Crc, so tired, but still gonna play match now.. hehe

the training was good, can see some improvement, don't know why the last match i cannot perform, is like i'm being seal back, but.. indeed the lan com and personal com have lots of different, it's like... ask you to drive motor for one day when you always drive car.. haha.. so sian..

2004-06-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

http://www.shes-crafty.net/you/wish.html go try this out man!! kinda true :)

Woke up around 3pm today, then play Laghaim, finally leveled up! lol, stop at around 5, then cs cs cs.... so hungry, waiting for my mom back with my favourite Kallang Airport Fried Noodle, yum yum, i gonna play game liao, bye!

2004-05-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

haha, i yesterday sleep till 10pm plus then awake till morning 7am bath then go cmpb liao, reach there had breakfast then go sign some paper then my mom go find her friends... blah blah, a normal day, supposingly have facial today de, but due to the time change to other day, aww man! haha.. then i went Bedok meet Neo, Koven, Wei Liang, Jin Yi, Eugene & Wei Guang for movie... we went arcade to kill time as the movie start much later on, i went and play initial d so long never play liao siahz, then got one chee bye kia from Midnight, don't have to post his name, i know he know can liao... play till so lame, slap car, then his car ahead of mi liao purposely brake, -.-' then nv wait at finishing line, knn... i was super du lan that moment, wanna bash him up liao, but :) i didn't i carried on play other game, wei liang and me play the skate board game haha.. so fun!! but no money shouldn't have spend so much on arcade :)

Watched Van Helsing, not a bad show, Anna is a chio bu :) i like her eyes.. very sexy, keke... i very tired siahz, haha...after watching i rush down Kallang Airport, i took 32, slept on the way, haha 20 min trip i think, then go there see chinese sensei, my knee, both knee pain :( haha.. he say my bone is like can support certain weight but my body structure is too big for it le, got to cut down so it won't get so pain liao, i already got this diet plan coming on liao haha! :) wish mi luck, i go play game le. byebye!!!

2004-05-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

arg, the new crc isn't so good... well the com are but the envoirment, ignts.. Bengster many many.. So many days never see my gan jie le.. don't know where she went, hahah...

wah i so tired siahz, again 2 days nv update, haahaa... Saturday went new crc lohz, had training then took train back, reach home at 12am, then dave come my house use com, till morning go help my mom carry stuff till afternoon 2pm then reach home, he use my com again, i went and took a bath then fall asleep on my mom bed.. till now lol... so tired...

I came to realise one more thing liao, every man wants to have someone who love them as much as they do right... who doesn't, who doesn't wants to have someone who will be at home waiting for you, heat rice cook meal, talk, love, tio bo? haha... i cant think of anything now, i awhile more go sleep liao... tml going cmpb to sign NS stuff.... bye!

2004-05-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

errr ,ps 2 day nv come in and update, i lazy sorry!! lol...anyway, on 26th, match was cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances :)

Haiz... think so much just now, have you all ever thought of what and how will the surrounding will change/become if you idle for such a long time.. is like, you'll be proud of your friend or might it be your relative who's waiting for someone that long, so long... but in the end, that someone that they're waiting for didn't accept them, is like, we all always say "i'll wait for you" yeahz, that's touching but have you ever thought of the ending? so what if you wait, 1year, 5 years or even 10 years, when that person don't accept or aknowledge your true love for that person.. :) one word, meaningless, you know why people always tend to be sad rather than happy? Cause, the society now are so fucked up... Girls out there, if you feel love with a particular boy, just go grab it, don't wait and you'll regret it, even that boy looks so uncharming than the one you don't feel love with but his charm is like oh my god, but, remember this... beauty,handsome,stylish all those, are just a exterior of somebody, try to break into that "armor" and you'll know what's dwelling inside of him/her :)

i'm not trying scold or "pi pin" anyone just say what i want to only :) i today went hospital pass my dad cig then hit home, i stop at Novena shopping center, i brought a handphone stand, quite nice, it's light red in colour with a silver heart supporting handphones backbone, haha nice hor! haha... so sian, today forgot to bring my handphone out. kaoz... so forgetful :) hiya i think i write later, i having headache now, btw i just made a milo dino for myself :) taste errr i give it average bahz:) humble :X hehe

2004-05-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

goood morning! just woke up, or should i say good afternoon, haha, today didn't go canteen help out, too tired le. :X tomorrow got to go, but about 4 pm plus must go liao, got friendly match against my old clan ]VI[... hmm, maybe a while more i go cook mee goreng, then start my day! hehe, wah lao i yesterday brought those glow in dark the stars that can paste on wall de, it keep dropping kns, then got 1 drop till cannot find! omg.. -.-'

i'll write later :) take care guys

2004-05-26T02:25:00.000+08:00

Something maybe fated to be, some are not.
Somebody might be destined to meet someone, some are not.
I was glade that it was fate that i get to know her although
I'm not destined to be with her

_________________________________________________________________________________________

wah liews, just now tried to check my hotmail email, but i can't log in! sianz, think nothing in this world likes me... lol, even my com, :( saddening... haha... i'm now talking to her now, haha.... kinda feel better a bit, thou still got some flash back of us going to that particular place if i'm at that place, k i'm going match now..

2004-05-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

wah i play match till 4am yesterday then sleep liao less than 2 hour then go canteen with mom le, slept thru out the whole journey but still so steamy -.-' then i carried on my ugly sleep till 11+ then i "Start" work hahaha.... never been this tired b4..

Adam and his wife ask if i want to accompany her to Sheng Song Paya Lebar de, then i say okay since i got some things to buy, i mean home use thing, then i shop about $18 haha... not bad huh?! lol...

At about 5+ i left for Hospital, brought lunch for my father, on reaching there my fourth aunt and uncle is already there with food ! ahaha, then i was like, oh he eat liao, then guess what? i slept on his bed for like 1 hour plus, hmmm don't know why but i dreamt of Adeline, and Bryan Tay and some more people in a food court but, Ade and Bryan and her mom and "sister*'thou she doens't have one except elder brother' sitting in a same table while mi and my friend other table.. haha...

Took train back with my cousin, 4th aunt,uncle and big uncle.. reach home, my com cock up, and wasted 2 hour.. lol.. now finally okay le, but no time to use, gonna go sleep le, very tired, later still got to wake up go canteen, well she sms me, heh, don't know why but i've never been loving someone like this before. :) cool , nights dudes

2004-05-25T04:41:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

http://www.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/mtv/0312/flash/031230cs.swf <-- this is so cute

2004-05-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

http://www.schroet.com/media/pchemma1.jpg picture/media of Schroet Kommando

http://www.xstat.net/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=1326&mode=thread&order=0&thold=0 My favourite cs player assaulted somebody!! omg..

http://www.tomshardware.com/game/20040403/index.html#guides Some hardware stuffssssss

2004-05-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

OMG WEB SITE DOWN, ALL THOSE THAT I'VE TYPED EARLIER ON DIDN'T GET PUBLISH AND I GOT TO RETYPE ALLLLLL OVER AGAIN!!!don't know if still remmeber what i type a not, hmmm

just came back from Whitesand, just realise something, we people don't treasure what we suppose to till they know they're losing it or already lost it.. "tian di xia mei you pi shi er fu de di gan qin gen xiu yao bao wor gen zhen xi" fact is, we can't understand how important it is till we're losing it...but. i did treasured every second of us together but why am i still losing it... perhaps, i'm not good for her bahz? hmm yeahz... should be :) must fact the reality, and reality is cruel :(

Not much people knows that i smoke back also, well, not i want to but i'm stress, ya u may say "stress, then why must smoke?" i bo bian, can't think of anything else le... just now meet her, realise that i've about 1 month didn't see her le, and usually people who don't see their friend for some time will have lots to chat, but i didn't except hi and bye... -.-' stupid me right? but, i really got nothing to say le, :( sorry.. sometimes i got this thinking to ask her patch back with her ex since they two were a loving couple, and i believe he will surely treat her good good this time round, although i won't bare to see them but... sometimes, thing are hard to explain, just like "why is the sky unreachable" "why is the sky blue not pink?" :) got the very first present this year, from her, thou i know my cousin giving mi another present from over sea but i haven't receive it thou :) but, i'm really very very happy to receive a present from someone whom i really like, can't say used to like cause i'm still loving her, haiz.. time is getting shorter and shorter, i know i'm saying till like i'm dieing leaving this world soon but, i like it this way, :)

soooo hungry, whole day haven't eat except just now at Cottage Pie had cup of coffee and 2 cheesy hearts.. :0 now waiting for my mom to be back with my dinner! :) this whole week got to go down help my mom till Sunday then they dont' want work le, go find other job, i see my mom i also kek sim, i once swored that when i get married, i won't let my wife live a unhappy life, even i had to work 24/7, for the sake of our happiness and child*hmmm* haha... think too far le ! lol... don't know if i can give birth a not sekali i impotent! LOL jkjk, can't be lahz.. haha kk i'm gonig to play cs now, later then update again

2004-05-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

sorry guys for not updating my blog for like 2 days? well, didn't came home that's why nv update, and not really in the mood to write also, haiz :) although last Saturday was my birthday, i didn't had or let say wish for any wish, cause, i scare that if i wish liao i will really look foward for that wish to come and will think all sorts of crazy stuff. i'm a boy, a 17 years old boy living in fantasy one.. :)

well... just see this clip quite funny http://www.jengajam.com/r/Soken-DVD-Kill-Bill go see it... i'm going to bath now, meeting Lionel & Ka Wei at WhiteSands, well. She message me this morning at 1.38am, but my phone no batt so when i reach home while charging, i on it to see if there's any message from her, well actually i always do that, even i know i didn't message her at all neither did she, well that's how love goes.... No one can draw a heart nicely, know why? cause, love are never in place when you're having 1... just like my hair, i cut one heart shape but that auntie, i know de, cut not in shape then is like, love is always out of shape, not perfect, i also nv blame that auntie, she also not so trained to cut all this, somemore she charge mi $17 niahz, quite nice liao i'm very grateful, i know i don't have much time left le... another 1 month i got to go in liao.. haiz... and everyday is like sorrow, miserable and saddness.... byes..

2004-05-22T05:24:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

had my dinner le, so full... btw, yesterday i went Angie house, she looks abit like my ex haha.... just finish match, heading to bed liao, my milky bed! hehe.. later going Toa Pa Yo with Neo, Insane, JinYi, Wl, SK, Nickiddo they all for free gaming, heheee... :) sianz..

I'm like a hand, only 1 side of it, another side is her, i need her to clap... to get happiness :( cya i'm goin' off le

2004-05-22T02:37:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

Wow, didn't update for friday, bo bian was out, i sleep till 8pm then Neo they all ask go bedok ROC so i went down, very moody... lol..

Reach at about 1am plus, i had fried kuey tiao, then we slack under block then went up Angie house, learned how to play mahjong again there... till they bth me they stop lol... then they start blackjack, arg, i suck in it!!! :(

Was awake till 6am we went for breakfast with Neo, then i took bus back, sleep till 2pm, do something then call them ask what time training then i meet Jin yi in bus 12..

I had laska at bugis food village, haha, *clock strikes 12am* happy birthday to this lonely boy, 17 years old... :) keke.. sigh, don't really like celebrating now, i've like lost something that's precious, :( i haven't wish for anything yet, gonna try wishing b4 i go sleep, hope it come true yeah! i go match le! c ya peeps! stay cool

2004-05-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

Yesterday, Wednesday, i whole day never update my blog, very sorry about it. :( Woke up at 1pm, then Dave came my house play laghaim, then i just lay on my parent bed and watch tv till 5pm+, went down stairs meet Kwee Sin.. Talk cock sing song.. -.-'

THen Wei Jie call dave, asking him whether later wanna follow them go crc play cs. Then we meet them at WhiteSand 8pm, when we reach Simei, Ah Gu say Randy is coming, wait for him, we end up waiting 15min or more...

We played till 12plus then realise we got no more last bus le! lols. then we all waited at the bus stop then went to the 7-11 outside sit, and i mean sit, for like 2 hours plus plus.. then got some stupid police come di siao siao.. -.-' get what i mean?

Then some of us agree to go back crc play till morning take bus, some went back. Ah gu, zian, randy, Wei Jie, Xiang Seng, Dave and me went back play till 6+.. haiz, need to save money pay back Gu,Zian and Insane..

I reach home at about 8am in the morning liao, which is today.. then i use my com a while i let Dave use, then Lionel call me ask mi go back Hai Sing with him, so i went to take a bath then lay on my bed waited, wait till i doze off.. i reach school at 12.30pm like that, pass by the place that i used to come few months ago, haiz.. all those memories.. -.-~

Had my breakfast in school, Hai Sing's chicken rice, woot! lol.... After eating we went DownTownEast play Initial D, i raech home at 2 pm ++ bahz, then i deli dali till 4pm then i go sleep till now, very shiok! later then i update again, i'm going match!cya

2004-05-19T01:41:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

slept till 12pm plus plus today! wake up find that nothing change :( haiz.. :) i whole day si bei moody, not because i tired or what just, i also don't know ;( i went Elias mall straight after i bath, to cut my hair!!! weee heart shape and a -M- behind, kewl hor? haha... guess what, that auntie who knows how to cut wasn't there!!! they ask mi tml then go back! which is later... :)

Then i went to the foodcourt which my parent used to work there... had black coffee, laska and soya bean, gonna ask why i eat so much right? keep that for later!! lols...

Then i go Whitesand, i brought curry puff, old chang kee de. NONONO, wrong... i went to white sand first, i brought curry puff, top up my ez link then take 359 to Elias mall... heeeheee, then i went to Tampinese Pavillion meet Lyn & Weelock they all, say what Weelock sad heart broken what he and his stead breaking up, then i bo bian, i came out too early, like 2+ and they all meet 4 go CRC, so i went Tampinese meet them, didn't eat anything there... about 4.20 i left there for bugis.. i went Bedok meet Neo and Insane, then i saw Jun Ye, cool saw so many peeps.. then once reach bugis, saw Nigel eating the prawn noodle, always see them eat i "genn" tio lol.. so i also eat, omg, i really ate alot today!!! then training with CsN and mix team, we need soemmore training and improve team work, we can make it de!! lols... Then when we finish our training, we went Macdonalds makan, yep, i got eat, yeah, you must be thinking "wah lao, no wonder guni so big size" but bo bian, no mood i appetite also won't die de lol... then on our way back in train, Niahgong was suan like no body business, Smoke ask him to pronounce "Mangiacapra" he took like 2 stops to pronounce, omg, but in the end still pronounce wrong, bahahaha...

I alighted with Smoke and Jin Yi, waiting like 30 min at the bus stop for bus number.9, tmd, then end up walking to tampinese with Jin Yi and Smoke, then i took cab home from 201.. about $4.70 bahz.. then reach home bath, now gonna play match le! cya guys! take care, update later!

2004-05-18T02:30:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

WOW check this out, http://8.pichold.com/skyline_chrome.jpg don't get blind k

2004-05-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

- Parting Of Loving Someone Is Learning To Let Go -

I Stayed up till 8am plus making my web site www.milkman.bravehost.com but don't seem to get it done, lol. I'm a html cum java noob! then i didn't off my com again, yeah! for the third day liao, i left it on downloading songs and movie. Went to sleep in my parent room with air con! wooo... hehe

Woke up at about 4pm like that, went online trying to edit my web site but still, catch no ball what to do lol.. need help man! hehe, went out at 7pm meet dave, neo, jin yi and wei guang at white sand, go "ROC" relac one corner, walked to pasir ris park to pei wei guang take his pay then walk all the way back to elias mall hdb there talk talk, till 11.30pm wei guang spon us cab go back, hehe, i'm going to play match now... bye!

2004-05-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

- T h e O n l y O n e I L o v e I s U -

Okay Guys, i'm damn bo liao now, i'm surfing websites and gonna copy all those nice link and paste here, feel free to surf them, no porno :) well maybe some are old but, are still good to dig up some old history :) hehe

http://www.smartfone.net/69/396.html WORLDS SMALLEST HARDDISK!!!

http://www.angelfire.com/extreme4/kiddofspeed/ Story and pictures of a lifeless, dead, ghostly town

http://www.youngpap.org.sg/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=2079 China student criticise singapore students as "stupid" *no offence to any china peeps*

2004-05-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

- Wo Yi Bu Neng Kong Zi Wo Zhi Zi Le, Wo Wu Fa Kan Zhe Ni Li Wo Er Chu, Wo Zhi Dao Wo Neng Tan Xin, Bu Guo, Wo Shi Zhen De Ai Ni -

Went tampines 201 meet Jin Yi and Dave, slack there for a while then decided to go Jin Yi house as there's no more bus for mi to go back home :( Played cs, yeah cs, got nothing else left in this world for me le, except cs :) Play till 2+ i ask him put some vcd for mi to watch, tmd who knows, he on "Never die alone" about mobster de, kns! i can't hear what they saying except "Mother fucker, Fuck ur mum" all those... -.-'

Fell asleep on the floor, having ache, then i went to his living room and sleep lolz... then about 1+ i ask dave to go liao, then go down coffeeshop eat, wah liaoz!! stomach pain like hell, after finish eating my bowl of noodle i ji tao go toilet buy policy! lol...

When i reach home i ask my mom, she say yesterday that "Fan Su Ye" a vegetable, will make people tend to go toilet more, i was like WTF!! LOL...

Yeah, i prepared myself and went to meet them for training, totally no form haiz... ended training at about 11... took train go home, called her.. by hearing her voice, i can tell that, it has been so long since i talk to her, i feel that her voice changed, and the way she talk.. haiz... i really hope, i won't have to forget her, i heard of this b4 "when someone loves you, he or she won't tell you he or she loves you" well, i never tell her now... used to thou, haha lets not talk abuot this, always talk about this i will get sad de, as there's so much fond memory when i was "with" her.. well, ending here, i'm going KnightOnline www.e-games.com.my to find out more!

2004-05-15T15:32:00.000+08:00

- Don't Say You Love Me When You Don't Mean It -

Woke up at about 12.30, quickly bathe and wake Jin Yi who is sleeping on my bed up, then i took cab to White Sand, shun bian drop him there... then i take train to Tiong Bahru, soo tired and sian..

The stupid IQ test is 2.30hr long! omg, all shading stuff, can die... then had a light lunch at the canteen, the food so cold :(
Then i head off the CRC as i remember they meeting there at 5.30 i dont want to be late also, so i roughly reach there at about 5.25, on my way there i talk on phone with Pauline, lol.. she changed alot! become more prettier le, go girl! heeexx

Wah piang, they all 6.30 then come, make mi wait for them for 1 hr, nvm haiz lol.... we had internal, a joke internal training then play a friendly with wrf i guess, i think we lost by 1 bahz? as something cock up at my house, got to rush home, took cab, reach home about 11, $12.00.. so tired..

slept at around 4am, as least got msg her, haiz, i feel so drifted away from her.. like i don't know her liao.. >_< i, don't know how to describe it.. sianz.. she brought up my birthday then i realise my birthday is just round the corner, on 22.may. also no mood to celebrate, stupid birthday wish, it won't also come true haiz... well, i'm gonna play game now, take care all byes!!!

2004-05-14T05:33:00.000+08:00

shit!! forgot to update!, bo bian was out the whole day, let mi refresh my memory of what i did k... hmmmm after i play match and stop at about 6+ all agreed on going crc on Thursday, Neo said come irc at 4+, so almost all went to sleep at about 6+am..

i woke up at 3+pm, dreamt of her thou, sighz.. back to story lolz... hmm then i went online and guess what! none was online except Jin Yi, the only one who got school! :) then i call Nigel, then i meet him and Jin Yi and Neo at Bedok mrt, then go bugis eat..

i had laska!! woot... shiok, haha, then we went up play, gosh 4 man play what match? somemore our com no sound! wffiak! lols... we stayed till about 11.20pm, then pack our thing pay and went off take train...

In the train saw some chio bus:) wooo, but.. nvm : ) then Jin Yi say want come my house then i on him, as i very sian at home, so we drop at Tanar Merah to eat, had prate(cheese,egg & plain) not bad lah the prata at bedok there... hahah.... then we went to playground, mi, Jin yi & Neo went there talk talk.. Then we shared cab go home, play a few round of matches, with cheaters i think lolz... then Jin Yi fell asleep on my bed, tmd, got to sleep on floor! lol... well, Initial D stage 4 is out, go IMESH and download it!! that's all for now, i'm going to hit the sack! btw, later going for commando battlion.. wish mi luck guys!

2004-05-12T01:38:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 6pm today, so tired... whole day right eye pain, don't know why, feel very swallon and pain.. *ouch*

My downloading of O2jam & track mania is complete! Installing them in progess lolz... Finish installing both of them, i tried O2jam first, wow it's great... spend like 1 hr playing it! but i find the Male Gender looks abit like Girl so i went create another account but the gender is Girl : )

Tried Trackmania after that, aww it sucks! to me thou... i deleted it straight away, they ask mi play match again... eye pain like hell but still continue playing.. haha, whole day nv eat anything hungry so i ask if anyone wanna go eat, then Jin yi say he haven't eat so i go Tampinese 201 find him eat roti prata, i reach home at about 1+ took cab home, no bus le :( ahhh i'm gonna continue my o2jamming now, find mi @ WwFMilkmaN :) super thirsty, go drink water first later then continue writing b4 i sleep

2004-05-11T05:11:00.000+08:00

i over slept! i'm suppose to meet my primary school friend, yudan at bus stop at 1pm, but i sleep till 1.05pm !lol, what a pig i am.. i bath then i go out le, meet him le we took 12 to katong meet vanessa, another primary school friend of mine then we went katong complex coffee shop had breakfast then go play a game of pool!kaoz, i deprove so much! omg..

I left the place at about 4.20pm, then i took 12 to bugis,crc, for training.. stayed there till 11 got home at about 12+..

Played match all with them, sigh.. things just won't change eh? No matter what you do or did, some thing will just stay there stationery, moveless.. :( well, i'm downloading some games to kill my time, logging off now:) good night sweet dreams all!!

- Forget me not -

2004-05-10T03:37:00.000+08:00

yep, i'm still online!! jsut finish matching with wwf- peeps! nice game thou we lose! lol... heeeheee. Haiz sad sad day for me, Yesterday was talking to her on the phone, then my friend Niahgong called mi ask mi play match... then some stuff happened.. didn't really enjoyed that match yesterday... haiz

Sunday morning wake up at 6.30 bath all those then dress up go church with family, smsed her on the way to carpark..

Pick up my eldest uncle and auntie on the way then go church together, once reach we went canteen makan, haven't eat can die :X i had fried mee hoon.. went up church after that, btw got 1 table infront of us is young group, cell group got 1 chio bu:X haha.. then went up the hall, third floor if i remembered correctly, then go in sing song all those, when preaching starts i got pretty tired keep dozing off, till got one part they say about "life is all about emotional, rejection and ..." sorts, i can't remember this part rejection struck the tears out of my eyes! sniff** haiz.. i think too much, quite alot of thing happened but i lazy to type out :X sorry! then after that we went makan katong laska, smsed her the whole day le but no reply (getting a bit worry at this point)

After having our lunch, we went Beach Road find second aunt"er gu" then my parent talk with them i doze off on the table.. Ahh don't know why lazy to type, think i not in good mood bahz.. haiz.. think end off here.

-wish list-
Initial D vol 28
Microsoft Ie3
Her..
And her..

2004-05-09T02:43:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 2+ today, breathes out and in, awwww morning breath! Went to brush my teeth, just realise, kitchen got nothing for mi to eat le. all maggie mee"s" finished!

Dang, starve the whole afternoon.. Played cs as usual then i saw my friend kenshin, he introduced a game call Fairy Land the stupid link is down again, got to keep retrying!!! ah, finally got it after 10 mins!!! Guess what, the downloading is so SLOW!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh, feeling hungry again... pick up my x430 and called dave, ask him come whitesand pei wo makan! supposed to meet at 4.30 but he reach @ 5

Par arcade spend money, then i go food court eat Ban Mian, wah so full!! week! hehe... then go par arcade again, damn i so long nv go arcade for how to play KOF le!! lols..

Went down Coffee Bean al kopi as usual, then feeling bit bored with just the two of us, i call jin yi down too along with his IE 1.1 (wanna try other mouse my IE4 can't use scroll very pek cek lolz) Shag there till 10 then go home...

Stupid Niahgong and Nigel call, ask us to get home faster to play match, tmd reach home liao they afk... gonna play Fairy Land later, the character so kawaiii one!! hmmm, wah i'm now playing cornous and fairy land at the same time lolz!!!

Later then continue............

2004-05-07T09:34:00.000+08:00

Alamak, yesterday whole day too much to post! ps, now i try to recall what happened yesterday...

hmmm, i stay up till 4+ then sleep till 6.20am wake up prepare to leave for Hendon camp, my mom insist to go with me, after flagging for a cab, i ask the driver to drive mi to central for mi to buy something to bite first, brought "Hum chi pang" hmmm her mom wasn't there... :X i brought 2 "Hum chi pang" & F&N Grape, early in the morning start drizzling liao, so cold blur~~~ About 10 min the journey.

When reach the camp i was instruct to sit down by the side with the rest. Damn sueh, so many red ants lol... then around 8am like that, the officer instruct us to the hall to have our NAFA done... wasn't prepared for that, but i did my best le, now my muscles so pain siah!! dots...so damn tired, kinda like drag myself home...

*Went Bath* wah shiok! lol, i went to my parent room to sleep, cause got air con more shiok. lol, but tmd, can't get to sleep. Only nap for like 1-2hr niahz, then i play cs and cornous tlil 9pm, go bath and prepare my equipment for training... hungry siahz! whole day never eat anything cept hum chi pang and sandwich at the camp!

I "da pao" laska up crc and makan, so shiok siah, we started playing at 11pm till 7am today, omg, can die!! but not bad lahz, got play with some top clans! got win got lose, but sure got gain experience : ) lol.... find it weird she didn't reply mi since afternoon don't know where she is...

Hmmm i didn't make it thru after 7, after finishing last match with GBR mix, we stop cs and play wc3, i bth then i doze off.. lol, then we go eat roti prata. So freaking expensive de!!! then then on the way home, i si bei sleepy can die, now just finish bathing going sleep le.. hmmm good night!!! kekee

2004-05-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Ah, almost update what happened today! lol, was about to sleep liao then remmeber, well here goes....

slept till 5pm plus today!! ah, the blanket made my neck feel so ichy!! scratch till so red, kaoz... hmmm ,guess what i said to my friend was right, if you tink about something or someone b4 u drift to sleep, you prolly will dream of it! well i did, but.. bad dream!! LOL

whole day nv go out, stupid jie of mine, angela, say hao today after she knock off around 7+ meet mi at century go watch movie de, but she never message so i whole day play cs at home, kao i like no cs i will die! lol... around 7+ like that i go cook two packet of Mee Goreng and eat, yum.... lol, my friend that day came my house tease me siah, say the noodle i cook hor, the standard can go be chief, then i say "it's only instant noodle!!" lol...

sian, today damn no mood play.. instead of fragging ppl, i kana frag by ppl lols... know what! I'm now in WwF- clan! wohooo!!! Wanted to join this clan since last year.. with my lousy skill also can get in, hmmm must train hard liao, cannot let my friend down!! : ) hmmm, think that's all i tink.. damn the friendster is so LAG!! got problem entering the web site.

GUYS go try this game Cornous, it's not bad bah, i rate it 3/5 : ) and btw, all xp users go www.microsoft.com to scan ur com if you haven't update, deadly virus spreading like mad!! SASSER ALERT!!! Heard this over the radio, microsoft ppl giving out warnings to all boardband users that there might be a virus attacking all BB users.. !! oh no!! lol that's all i go play match le, see cs again lolz..

2004-05-05T04:24:00.000+08:00

!!! so late still haven't sleep !!! hahaha, hmm can't really get to sleep lohz. Haiz, have alot of problem, i mean myself. >_<~ Just now went crc with friends, cool siahz, can't wait till i join that clan :X hope i can join thou : )

Whole afternoon cs at lan, reach home cs again. Lol, cs my life? Maybe when i more hardcore, but ns coming, sad!! Haiz, speaking of that, ns coming >_< can't really hardcore also, later maybe meeting my friend and my jie go watch movie : ) so long nv see my chio bu jie le :X keke... btw, my friend i selling nintendo + ps2(brought when ps2 just arrive in sg, in good condition) for 1.1k :) interested parties come #forget^it^bar find milkman ! : )

Hmmm, think i go play cs again, logging out now : )

2004-05-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

Ah! what a night, can't sleep well. so i got my floor bed and place it beside the air con in my parent room, ya i slept on the floor, then woke up with a aching chest! bo bian,
haiz... I can't really sleep, keep thinking of you wake up to check if she message me a not, sian.... i know i'm not a good guy, i'm not rich or what, but i got something that is can't be brought over using money, my feelings my heart. It belongs to her all along, is up to her to accept it, sheesh. I talked too much about my love life! craps lol
Reach the work place, which i call canteen at around 7plus in the morning, guess what!! i didn't sleep in the canteen today! then around 12 plus my mom receive a call from hospital telling her that my dad can be discharge today ask mi to go pick him around 12plus..
Reach back canteen at 2+ then i went home at 2.30. Reach home at about 3plus! Weee then my friend, Jin yi, came over and help mi format my com, i'm a computer noob! : )now my computer okay le! I was pretty upset when my com spoiled! It is like my 3rd precious procession thou i've lost my 1st, which is her >_< then i'm going crazy also i lost myself 2nd.. i've learnt to treasure myself that's why i put myself in 2nd place : ) thanks to her i learnt alot but... what's the use of having and learning all those in the end i still don't have her, haiz.. i really hope my future starts with her, and ends it with her.. :( well that's all for now..

2004-05-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11+ today!! yawns, so tired slept at 4am... bath liao then go crc, ate zhu cha tang! so full, but now abit hungry.
Hope later she let me go home with her then tomorrow morning go church with me..
dang! my com spoil! tio virus! omg!!!

2004-05-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

Ah!! Finally got my own blog :X muhahahah, hmmmm let see what i gonna share with you guys..K, here goes :)

Woke up at 6am this morning, ah must be wondering why i wake up so early right?! well, got to go help my mom at the stall for like another 5 days or more. Dad got warded in hospital, granny fell down recently and broke her right arm. And both of them are the cookers!! Bad luck huh! Haha, so i got to go help and cook, yep cook! I'm a bad chef i have to admit this! Well, practices make perfect! I'm sure that i'll good better dishes with each day pass.. Yep, guess i was too tired, so i dozed off on the table and slept till 11am! What a pig i am right! The moment i wake up, i notice two small red patches on my right arm, hmmm guess ants or what bitten me, kaoz! haha, then my mom ask mi to get ready to cook, it's my turn to cook finally! lol.. after cooking to went to the drink stall and chit chatted with them, can say i'm the youngest as in age not size there, as a small cook i mean :X haha hmm that's how time pass. I left for hospital with Fried Fish Noodle for my dad and sugar cane(with lemon!) for me at about 4pm, reach there at 4.30 or so.. Left for home at about 5+ i think, omg.. i took 21 from Tan Tock Seng.. then suddenly my bladder was so gonna burst any moment! then i buei lun so i got down at Bedok Reservior near by hawker center to ease myself, *grins* lols... Then i waited for another 21 boarded and slept on the journey.. Reach home at about 7+, play cs. Bo bian my com only got cs and i'm a cs freak thou i'm still a noob! sighz! :(...

Hmmm, just now i saw her ex profile at friendster, notice a name which doesn't belongs to her, then i was like so rage... well, normally people at this kinad situation will tend to be happy, don't know why. but i feel so rage! Because he promise her that he will be good all those craps.. then i called her, i ask if she got a korean name that her ex named for her, she said ya, guess what, that name belongs to her lol.. well i'm thinking too much, sighz.. sometimes i did wished that i was her ex, and will treat her better than ever! : (.. well, think what she said might be right, we don't meant for each other..

------ Loving you more with each day passes -------